Actually i wanted to turn in just now, but idk why i walked out of my bedroom. Went out AGAIN today with PeiQi, ShiLi, YongCheng, Ben &Kenneth. Trained to Bugis. (I don't know why i joined them either cos' i was thinking of studying today.) Shopped, ate &shopped. Bored. Was damn moody pls. Sometimes, i would rather keep everything to myself than to speak out. I don't want anyone to turn moody like me. I was actually thinking, am i betraying myself (?) Am i doing things i want to do (?) Actually, i want to vent out everything but i am still searching for th right one. Sisters, i know you guys will stand by me &are more than willing to be my listening ears. But ... Speechless ! Thousands of WHYs are running in my mind. Seriously, i am lost. I don't who to turn to. Neither do i know what to do. If i were to do this, that will happen. But if i not going to do anything, i will not feel good either. GDI. Hot - housing (?) will start today/tmr. &Also, my Uncle will be celebrating his birthday at Kbox. I wanna go too. I actually asked Dad for permission to allow my friends to go. But before i ask, he straight away reply : "Only PeiQi &ShiLi, no others. Those guys who attended th Chalet, don't invite." See, my Dad alr leave a very BAD IMPRESSION on those who attended th Chalet previously. Who are they? Those who smoked that day. Its like, i am always clinging on to different bunch of Monkeys every now &then. So, its like ARGHS! There will also be Chalet on th 29 th May. Food (?) Sponsored. Chalet (?) My Mum's. If i were to ask my dogs to join, there will be like soo many of them. If i were to ask a few, later say i bias. Confused pls. Fine,shall decide later then. Now, i wanna sleep &i am still feeling bad can. Foooooook!